Hi Lisa. You don’t know me but I feel like I know you in a way. Several years ago in the 1980’s I sat in a church where you were speaking. I was only about 12 or 13. I loved watching you on The Facts of Life and was excited to hear about you. I was so impacted by your words. You spoke about how difficult it was being a Christian in an actors world and holding your values in that environment, but most of all you spoke of your love for God and how he has been right there with you. That day I asked God into my heart and He has been with me ever since. Reading your words today encourages me because I too have had many struggles in this life and am trying to find myself still. It’s a never ending journey but I’m getting closer every day and closer to God every day. I’m so thankful for your words. I just wanted you to know the impact you have had on my life. Thank you.❤️
This means so much. To think you were twelve or thirteen in that church, and that something I said was part of you asking God into your heart, I don't take that lightly at all. And here you are all these years later, still on the journey, getting closer every day. Thank you for telling me. What a gift to know.
Hello Lisa. I knew when you started this Substack that eventually your Survivor story would conclude and that you would find a new topic to cover, and I suspected it was going to be what came next. Because Survivor is a life-changing experience, but the most interesting parts of the life-change occur in the aftermath. So I'm all in for reading what comes next! (You are also making me think about what will come next on my own Substack column once I have concluded my Covid story).
Your exit question about losing control made me think of three specific experiences in my life.
1) My experience with the Marine Corps. As a college student, I was preparing for a career as a Marine officer, from which I intended to pivot later into the Foreign Service. But my plans did not survive contact with Officer Candidate School. My self-image, confidence and identity were, over the next 4 years, stripped away and ground up as I ended up losing the bright future I had envisioned and had to rebuild my identity. In this event, I lost control of my expected future path.
2) My marriage. As we approached our tenth year, I discovered evidence that my wife was deeply unhappy and was thinking about divorce. I also realized that her unhappiness was legitimate, and my fault. I had no idea if I could do anything to save the marriage, but I knew I didn't want to see her leave, and I knew that I couldn't use wordplay and debating skills to talk her into staying, the only thing I could do was give her a reason to WANT to stay. And I had no control over the outcome. In this event, I lost control of my marriage and my family life. (Spoiler alert, we just celebrated our 31st anniversay.)
3) My Covid experience. As I am writing about right now, I went through five months in the health-care system when I nearly died from Covid. I spent nearly a month in a medically-induced coma, where I lost access to sensory input. After I awoke, I spent a long period of time where I could not trust my own mind to properly process, contextualize and understand that regained sensory input - my mind, which I had been proud of ever since I was young, was no longer fully under my control. And finally, when I had regained lucidity, I had to deal with the fact that I no longer had full control over my own body, as it was too weak to properly respond to what I told it to do. So here, I lost control of everything.
You write "I had spent my entire life inside a faith that taught me love had to be earned, that mistakes were met with shame, that I had to stay one step ahead of my own sinful heart at all costs." I can relate to that. I am now finding my way back to the faith I had stopped participating in 30+ years ago, and with a new understanding that God is faithful even when we are not. And that being deserving of God's love is not the prerequisite.
Three different seasons, OCS, the marriage, the coma, and each one a real loss of control over the things you counted on most, including your own mind and body. That's a lot of life to have moved through. I'm glad you're in such a good place now. And I'm enjoying reading your fascinating Covid story.
Gm Mrs.Lisa what a powerful post how you overcome your situation. This really helps me last week I went through a situation that the Lord had to hear my cry and went to quiet place and let all the anxiety out that why I like when you said you to get alone and get that refreshing. I thank you on Substack keep up the great work and the Lord bless you and your family. Stay safe.
I was “put” in a situation out of my control for most of 2025 related to my health.
At age 62, I spent most of 2025 either on the couch, doctors office or Emergency Room. The excessive time on the couch had me reflecting over all my successes and stumbles in life.
Also some fairly dark times thinking “what is happening to my body?”.
I had no control and had been active and healthy my entire life. I took my health for granted- that it would always be there. I thought several times I would have an untimely death.
I’m getting back on track in 2026- but the mental toll of 2025 was horrendous.
I learned about Ekhart Tolle- and REALLY living in the moment -day by day- sometimes hour by hour. It is hard to do, but with practice, I’m learning now at age 63- to do just that. Building daily positive practices.
It may be just walking the dog, going to the beach, reading a good book, meditation, breathing exercises, music and even getting a part time job (in music and arts industry- haven’t done that since Casa Manana in the early 70’s…😉) to occupy my mind- but I’m learning to live day by day. I’ve learned “aging” truly is not for sissies- 😉
You named something really true - I think our health is often where we really encounter how much we are not ultimately not in control. You're are right about aging not being for sissies! Thanks for sharing.
And as I am now 64,and a Diabetic, I agree - dealing with health issues is not for sissies. Wishing you well on your journey with this. Know that you are not alone.😎👍
Very interesting to find the nothing and then the everything. I have had many times I went through similar challenges. One of the hardest was caring for my husband with dementia, alone, for 5 years. Losing him day by day. No help. The complete physical, emotional and spiritual exhaustion is hard to describe. But, I asked God for Grace to see me through. I wanted to show others that love could help you through the impossible. His leaving was peaceful and we were both ready. And, all the things I had to learn to do during that time period gave me a strength I didn't know I could have. There were many times I was so exhausted I could hardly walk...that became my nothing. The day to day work of keeping going. But my faith in God increased tenfold. I knew I never would have made it without His help.
I have no long story, i have no great epiphany, no religious words and i dont have awful tragedy to retell. Just a memory of a pivotal moment where i realized something of myself. I was ill, mentally ill. I lost a lot of weight, was not eating, not working and felt very very alone. i fell to my knees one afternoon and cried as i never cried before. Then I stopped. I was disgusted at myself so bad. I said to myself " enough, enough ! " i was tired of being me in that moment. I said to my self " i am not doing "this" a second more. I dried my eyes, walked into the kitchen and began to eat something. Later that day, i called for professional help. My life did not become awesome and great after that. on the contrary, life was the same. But i was a bit different on my approach to life. I wanted a better balance of myself. No super high and no extreme low. no happy ending yet, but that ok, i have lots to live for.
That kind of turn, the enough, enough and then getting up and making the call, took real strength, even if it didn't feel like it at the time. And wanting balance instead of the highs and lows, that's wisdom. I'm glad you have lots to live for. Thank you for sharing this with me.
You had mentioned previously that you do not care for the term "meditation", but having time and space to take a moment for yourself is a very freeing thing. It's even mentioned in Psalms, "Be still and know..." Our journey on this planet is never going to go according to a plan, all we can do is do our best to adapt. But sometimes those adaptations place us in situations we don't understand or desire. We can be scared, hateful, rebellious...but change is also part of this world. We make & lose friends. We discover new places that we didn't think we wanted to see. We lose family and gain new loved ones as well.
In the midst of all that change, it is always best to take a slice of it for yourself. Be Lisa, even if you're not sure who she is. 1980s Lisa is very different in outlook from 2010s Lisa. Be Lisa in that precise moment.
BERGSTROM: "I'll tell you what. Whenever you feel alone and there's nobody you can rely on, this is all you need to know." *(passes a folded note to Lisa)*
LISA: "Thank you, Mr. Bergstrom. So, I guess this is it. If you don't mind, I'll just run alongside the train as it speeds you from my life."
*(Bergstrom boards the train and it leaves the station, Lisa running along the platform. Bergstrom sees her and slides the window down)*
BERGSTROM: "Goodbye, Lisa, Honey. It'll be okay. Just read the note."
*(The train heads off into the distance. Lisa looks at the folded note and opens it, it reads "You are Lisa Simpson".)*
---The Simpsons, S2, E19 "Lisa's Substitute"
If you ever feel alone and there's no one you can rely on, remember: You are Lisa Whelchel. ❤️
I think it's helpful to distinguish between control over external events and personal agency.
If we're talking about external events, I don't think we ever had control in the first place. We can influence people and circumstances, sometimes a great deal, but influence isn't control. We can't lose something we never possessed.
People also talk about "relinquishing control." But if it's external control, that's really just acknowledging we never had it. If it's personal agency, then relinquishing it is itself an act of agency. You're choosing not to exercise it, which is itself a choice.
Maybe we spend too much time talking about control and not enough about agency. One is largely an illusion; the other is real. If moments like these reveal anything, I don't think it's how much control we lost. I think they reveal how we exercise the agency we always had.
Looking back, I don't think the defining moments in my life revealed how much control I had. They revealed how I exercised my agency when the outcome was uncertain. That's where I discovered something true about myself.
Lisa, I appreciate the lessons you’ve shared with us from your Survivor experience . You are too humble about feeling the nothing, or maybe feeling less than something. You are one brave lady, and can do anything. That is a valuable lesson, however it is learned. I admire the strength and the not giving up. Thanks for helping us all realize there is more to us behind our masks, and it’s not all scary, it’s worth discovering. ❤️. Dayna
I love this. Too often, people blame their behavior on a situation they had no control over. "That wasn't who I am, I was put in a terrible situation..." and then they go on their way, back to being who they want to portray. Never examining what happened in that moment. To your point, that IS who you (I/we) are, and we could reflect on it, and learn from it. If we aren't afraid to, and take the time to do so.
I thought I'd lose interest after you finished the Survivor story, but I was wrong. (I'm SORRY for thinking that! lol) I look forward to hearing about your 30 days. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Hi Lisa I hope you are having a wonderful spirit filled day. I am looking forward to church this morning, I get to lead my Sunday School Class this in a discussion on the book of Luke. I am a little nervous so any prayers would be appreciated
Hi Lisa. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your story. I sat in tears reading as your words brought a realization about myself that I have not really let surface, I connected as if they were written about me. Although I didn't grow up in a Christian household, I did grow up with a severely narcissistic mother. You gave voice to the emptiness that lies beneath the self I created for love and acceptance within and outside my family. Thank you. ❤️
I too have been on a journey for several years trying to discover who I truly am. I also have to say that I LOVED growing up with you/Blair while watching The Facts of Life. 😁❤️ Sending you lots of love and continued strength along your journey and gratitude for having such and open and brave heart. I look forward to your posts. ❤️
What you named here, the emptiness beneath the self you built for love and acceptance, growing up with a narcissistic mother, that's a tender and hard-won piece of self-knowledge. I'm moved that the post gave it somewhere to surface. You're doing brave work too. Sending love right back to you, and thank you for growing up with Blair and for being here now. ❤️
This is good, really good. I felt the suspense building up even though the funny part is you’re talking about going somewhere quiet. It’s amazing how much can be heard in that silence.
You asked a really good thought-provoking question about control. I’m going to be honest with you, I don’t know how to answer that. I feel like I’ve never had much control to begin with to lose it. Growing up, I carried the weight of someone else’s actions and paid for it. Which I’ve shared regarding my mom. As an adult I guess if I had to pinpoint one thing it’s been having all these ideas and things I want to do but not follow through because ultimately I let my mind win. So maybe it’s my mind I need to take back control from. I am not sure but I’ll be learning and asking myself these same questions. Thank you for taking us on this journey with you. 🙏
Thank you. Hey I just watched a movie you are in. Roswell Delirium, it is so good. I loved the 80’s nostalgia. I like how Mrs. Peltzer is seen as part of normalcy of the town but blurs the lines in May/Firefly’s mind by her calling the class monsters and canceling the quizzes. The final scene of May/Firelfy and her mom’s conversation was moving. Her telling her mom she didn’t blame her and she wasn’t upset. Loved it. I am gonna be thinking on this movie all week probably.
Hi Lisa, I love that you did 30 days of not speaking. I told my husband and my sister I would love to do that, and they cracked up. Apparently the thought of me not talking is hysterical to those who know me best.
But honestly, I think it would be amazing to have that kind of space — no distractions, no filling the silence, just being forced to listen to my own heart.
For me, I think shame was what I didn’t want to feel. And when I was finally brave enough to share the things I was ashamed of, I truly discovered grace. People were much kinder about it than I had been to myself.
Thank you for sharing your story so honestly ❤️. I look forward to your posts!!
Hey, I highly encourage it, if you are able to take the time and space for silence. And, that makes me so happy that you were able to bring your shame out into the light and find grace. That's a big one!
Another great read today. In response to your question, when I was going through my fertility situation, it wasn’t easy. Like I mentioned in my comment on your post last Thursday, I can sometimes feel like I need to be in control, especially when things are uncertain. But this situation taught me to trust that God has me and will carry me through. I’ve learned that I need to give my worries to Him more than I do and surrender control more, because it’s not my will, but His. During that time, I also had a short season of sleeplessness. When I couldn’t sleep, I started using that time to talk with God and I read through the whole bible, something I hadn’t done before. Well I’ve read through bits and pieces of it but not all the way through.
Hi Lisa. You don’t know me but I feel like I know you in a way. Several years ago in the 1980’s I sat in a church where you were speaking. I was only about 12 or 13. I loved watching you on The Facts of Life and was excited to hear about you. I was so impacted by your words. You spoke about how difficult it was being a Christian in an actors world and holding your values in that environment, but most of all you spoke of your love for God and how he has been right there with you. That day I asked God into my heart and He has been with me ever since. Reading your words today encourages me because I too have had many struggles in this life and am trying to find myself still. It’s a never ending journey but I’m getting closer every day and closer to God every day. I’m so thankful for your words. I just wanted you to know the impact you have had on my life. Thank you.❤️
This means so much. To think you were twelve or thirteen in that church, and that something I said was part of you asking God into your heart, I don't take that lightly at all. And here you are all these years later, still on the journey, getting closer every day. Thank you for telling me. What a gift to know.
Thank you for being so honest and sharing your life. It means a lot.💕
Wow. Just wow
Hello Lisa. I knew when you started this Substack that eventually your Survivor story would conclude and that you would find a new topic to cover, and I suspected it was going to be what came next. Because Survivor is a life-changing experience, but the most interesting parts of the life-change occur in the aftermath. So I'm all in for reading what comes next! (You are also making me think about what will come next on my own Substack column once I have concluded my Covid story).
Your exit question about losing control made me think of three specific experiences in my life.
1) My experience with the Marine Corps. As a college student, I was preparing for a career as a Marine officer, from which I intended to pivot later into the Foreign Service. But my plans did not survive contact with Officer Candidate School. My self-image, confidence and identity were, over the next 4 years, stripped away and ground up as I ended up losing the bright future I had envisioned and had to rebuild my identity. In this event, I lost control of my expected future path.
2) My marriage. As we approached our tenth year, I discovered evidence that my wife was deeply unhappy and was thinking about divorce. I also realized that her unhappiness was legitimate, and my fault. I had no idea if I could do anything to save the marriage, but I knew I didn't want to see her leave, and I knew that I couldn't use wordplay and debating skills to talk her into staying, the only thing I could do was give her a reason to WANT to stay. And I had no control over the outcome. In this event, I lost control of my marriage and my family life. (Spoiler alert, we just celebrated our 31st anniversay.)
3) My Covid experience. As I am writing about right now, I went through five months in the health-care system when I nearly died from Covid. I spent nearly a month in a medically-induced coma, where I lost access to sensory input. After I awoke, I spent a long period of time where I could not trust my own mind to properly process, contextualize and understand that regained sensory input - my mind, which I had been proud of ever since I was young, was no longer fully under my control. And finally, when I had regained lucidity, I had to deal with the fact that I no longer had full control over my own body, as it was too weak to properly respond to what I told it to do. So here, I lost control of everything.
You write "I had spent my entire life inside a faith that taught me love had to be earned, that mistakes were met with shame, that I had to stay one step ahead of my own sinful heart at all costs." I can relate to that. I am now finding my way back to the faith I had stopped participating in 30+ years ago, and with a new understanding that God is faithful even when we are not. And that being deserving of God's love is not the prerequisite.
Three different seasons, OCS, the marriage, the coma, and each one a real loss of control over the things you counted on most, including your own mind and body. That's a lot of life to have moved through. I'm glad you're in such a good place now. And I'm enjoying reading your fascinating Covid story.
Gm Mrs.Lisa what a powerful post how you overcome your situation. This really helps me last week I went through a situation that the Lord had to hear my cry and went to quiet place and let all the anxiety out that why I like when you said you to get alone and get that refreshing. I thank you on Substack keep up the great work and the Lord bless you and your family. Stay safe.
I'm so glad you were able to go to the Lord with the truth of what you were feeling and find some release and comfort.
Thank you Mrs Lisa I admired that you have compassion and shared it .
I was “put” in a situation out of my control for most of 2025 related to my health.
At age 62, I spent most of 2025 either on the couch, doctors office or Emergency Room. The excessive time on the couch had me reflecting over all my successes and stumbles in life.
Also some fairly dark times thinking “what is happening to my body?”.
I had no control and had been active and healthy my entire life. I took my health for granted- that it would always be there. I thought several times I would have an untimely death.
I’m getting back on track in 2026- but the mental toll of 2025 was horrendous.
I learned about Ekhart Tolle- and REALLY living in the moment -day by day- sometimes hour by hour. It is hard to do, but with practice, I’m learning now at age 63- to do just that. Building daily positive practices.
It may be just walking the dog, going to the beach, reading a good book, meditation, breathing exercises, music and even getting a part time job (in music and arts industry- haven’t done that since Casa Manana in the early 70’s…😉) to occupy my mind- but I’m learning to live day by day. I’ve learned “aging” truly is not for sissies- 😉
You named something really true - I think our health is often where we really encounter how much we are not ultimately not in control. You're are right about aging not being for sissies! Thanks for sharing.
I love Ekhart Tolle!
And as I am now 64,and a Diabetic, I agree - dealing with health issues is not for sissies. Wishing you well on your journey with this. Know that you are not alone.😎👍
Thank you!
Best to you as well….🙏🏻🥰🫶
Very interesting to find the nothing and then the everything. I have had many times I went through similar challenges. One of the hardest was caring for my husband with dementia, alone, for 5 years. Losing him day by day. No help. The complete physical, emotional and spiritual exhaustion is hard to describe. But, I asked God for Grace to see me through. I wanted to show others that love could help you through the impossible. His leaving was peaceful and we were both ready. And, all the things I had to learn to do during that time period gave me a strength I didn't know I could have. There were many times I was so exhausted I could hardly walk...that became my nothing. The day to day work of keeping going. But my faith in God increased tenfold. I knew I never would have made it without His help.
So beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
I have no long story, i have no great epiphany, no religious words and i dont have awful tragedy to retell. Just a memory of a pivotal moment where i realized something of myself. I was ill, mentally ill. I lost a lot of weight, was not eating, not working and felt very very alone. i fell to my knees one afternoon and cried as i never cried before. Then I stopped. I was disgusted at myself so bad. I said to myself " enough, enough ! " i was tired of being me in that moment. I said to my self " i am not doing "this" a second more. I dried my eyes, walked into the kitchen and began to eat something. Later that day, i called for professional help. My life did not become awesome and great after that. on the contrary, life was the same. But i was a bit different on my approach to life. I wanted a better balance of myself. No super high and no extreme low. no happy ending yet, but that ok, i have lots to live for.
That kind of turn, the enough, enough and then getting up and making the call, took real strength, even if it didn't feel like it at the time. And wanting balance instead of the highs and lows, that's wisdom. I'm glad you have lots to live for. Thank you for sharing this with me.
You had mentioned previously that you do not care for the term "meditation", but having time and space to take a moment for yourself is a very freeing thing. It's even mentioned in Psalms, "Be still and know..." Our journey on this planet is never going to go according to a plan, all we can do is do our best to adapt. But sometimes those adaptations place us in situations we don't understand or desire. We can be scared, hateful, rebellious...but change is also part of this world. We make & lose friends. We discover new places that we didn't think we wanted to see. We lose family and gain new loved ones as well.
In the midst of all that change, it is always best to take a slice of it for yourself. Be Lisa, even if you're not sure who she is. 1980s Lisa is very different in outlook from 2010s Lisa. Be Lisa in that precise moment.
BERGSTROM: "I'll tell you what. Whenever you feel alone and there's nobody you can rely on, this is all you need to know." *(passes a folded note to Lisa)*
LISA: "Thank you, Mr. Bergstrom. So, I guess this is it. If you don't mind, I'll just run alongside the train as it speeds you from my life."
*(Bergstrom boards the train and it leaves the station, Lisa running along the platform. Bergstrom sees her and slides the window down)*
BERGSTROM: "Goodbye, Lisa, Honey. It'll be okay. Just read the note."
*(The train heads off into the distance. Lisa looks at the folded note and opens it, it reads "You are Lisa Simpson".)*
---The Simpsons, S2, E19 "Lisa's Substitute"
If you ever feel alone and there's no one you can rely on, remember: You are Lisa Whelchel. ❤️
Hugs,
Grey
Thank you for this sweet comment. 😊
I think it's helpful to distinguish between control over external events and personal agency.
If we're talking about external events, I don't think we ever had control in the first place. We can influence people and circumstances, sometimes a great deal, but influence isn't control. We can't lose something we never possessed.
People also talk about "relinquishing control." But if it's external control, that's really just acknowledging we never had it. If it's personal agency, then relinquishing it is itself an act of agency. You're choosing not to exercise it, which is itself a choice.
Maybe we spend too much time talking about control and not enough about agency. One is largely an illusion; the other is real. If moments like these reveal anything, I don't think it's how much control we lost. I think they reveal how we exercise the agency we always had.
Looking back, I don't think the defining moments in my life revealed how much control I had. They revealed how I exercised my agency when the outcome was uncertain. That's where I discovered something true about myself.
Very wise perspective. Thanks for sharing.
Lisa, I appreciate the lessons you’ve shared with us from your Survivor experience . You are too humble about feeling the nothing, or maybe feeling less than something. You are one brave lady, and can do anything. That is a valuable lesson, however it is learned. I admire the strength and the not giving up. Thanks for helping us all realize there is more to us behind our masks, and it’s not all scary, it’s worth discovering. ❤️. Dayna
Thanks, Dayna. I'm glad you're here. 😊
I love this. Too often, people blame their behavior on a situation they had no control over. "That wasn't who I am, I was put in a terrible situation..." and then they go on their way, back to being who they want to portray. Never examining what happened in that moment. To your point, that IS who you (I/we) are, and we could reflect on it, and learn from it. If we aren't afraid to, and take the time to do so.
I thought I'd lose interest after you finished the Survivor story, but I was wrong. (I'm SORRY for thinking that! lol) I look forward to hearing about your 30 days. Thank you for sharing it with us.
I appreciate your acknowledgment. And no need to apologize for thinking you'd drift off after Survivor. I'm just glad you're still here.
Honest. Open. Vulnerable. Thank you for sharing this.
Thanks. My pleasure.
Hi Lisa I hope you are having a wonderful spirit filled day. I am looking forward to church this morning, I get to lead my Sunday School Class this in a discussion on the book of Luke. I am a little nervous so any prayers would be appreciated
Prayers on the way. 😊
Thanks Lisa
It went very well
Hi Lisa. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your story. I sat in tears reading as your words brought a realization about myself that I have not really let surface, I connected as if they were written about me. Although I didn't grow up in a Christian household, I did grow up with a severely narcissistic mother. You gave voice to the emptiness that lies beneath the self I created for love and acceptance within and outside my family. Thank you. ❤️
I too have been on a journey for several years trying to discover who I truly am. I also have to say that I LOVED growing up with you/Blair while watching The Facts of Life. 😁❤️ Sending you lots of love and continued strength along your journey and gratitude for having such and open and brave heart. I look forward to your posts. ❤️
What you named here, the emptiness beneath the self you built for love and acceptance, growing up with a narcissistic mother, that's a tender and hard-won piece of self-knowledge. I'm moved that the post gave it somewhere to surface. You're doing brave work too. Sending love right back to you, and thank you for growing up with Blair and for being here now. ❤️
I have a fear of abandonment.
I understand. That's a deep core fear that must be met with gentle grace. I hope you can give yourself that.
Me too! lol! But seriously I am going to ask God how to meet and deal with it.
This is good, really good. I felt the suspense building up even though the funny part is you’re talking about going somewhere quiet. It’s amazing how much can be heard in that silence.
You asked a really good thought-provoking question about control. I’m going to be honest with you, I don’t know how to answer that. I feel like I’ve never had much control to begin with to lose it. Growing up, I carried the weight of someone else’s actions and paid for it. Which I’ve shared regarding my mom. As an adult I guess if I had to pinpoint one thing it’s been having all these ideas and things I want to do but not follow through because ultimately I let my mind win. So maybe it’s my mind I need to take back control from. I am not sure but I’ll be learning and asking myself these same questions. Thank you for taking us on this journey with you. 🙏
You're actually in the perfect place. Just asking questions and wondering. That's where we are going next on this journey into silence.
Thank you. Hey I just watched a movie you are in. Roswell Delirium, it is so good. I loved the 80’s nostalgia. I like how Mrs. Peltzer is seen as part of normalcy of the town but blurs the lines in May/Firefly’s mind by her calling the class monsters and canceling the quizzes. The final scene of May/Firelfy and her mom’s conversation was moving. Her telling her mom she didn’t blame her and she wasn’t upset. Loved it. I am gonna be thinking on this movie all week probably.
Yay! I’m glad you found it and enjoyed it!
Hi Lisa, I love that you did 30 days of not speaking. I told my husband and my sister I would love to do that, and they cracked up. Apparently the thought of me not talking is hysterical to those who know me best.
But honestly, I think it would be amazing to have that kind of space — no distractions, no filling the silence, just being forced to listen to my own heart.
For me, I think shame was what I didn’t want to feel. And when I was finally brave enough to share the things I was ashamed of, I truly discovered grace. People were much kinder about it than I had been to myself.
Thank you for sharing your story so honestly ❤️. I look forward to your posts!!
Hey, I highly encourage it, if you are able to take the time and space for silence. And, that makes me so happy that you were able to bring your shame out into the light and find grace. That's a big one!
Another great read today. In response to your question, when I was going through my fertility situation, it wasn’t easy. Like I mentioned in my comment on your post last Thursday, I can sometimes feel like I need to be in control, especially when things are uncertain. But this situation taught me to trust that God has me and will carry me through. I’ve learned that I need to give my worries to Him more than I do and surrender control more, because it’s not my will, but His. During that time, I also had a short season of sleeplessness. When I couldn’t sleep, I started using that time to talk with God and I read through the whole bible, something I hadn’t done before. Well I’ve read through bits and pieces of it but not all the way through.
Fertility issues is such a huge crucible of control. I'm glad you found your way through it with peace.